%%knife%% -- 2006-11-03 // 11:02 a.m.
is it too hard to ask to want something thats just mine. that no one else can have, and never have to worry about it being stolen away from me?I dont want to have a girl because i need her, i want a girl i want to be with. no matter how much i deny and hate it, i miss the mushie stuff. I miss cuddling and smiles and little kisses, but all of that doesnt even feel the same without a connection.... its the best feeling in the world, and the worst absence. when i find it again, ill know the cost, and love without boundaries. Ill fight instead of giving up. Ill never let go of her instead of pushing her away. Ill listen and understand, instead of ignoring and condesending. Ill love her with every last piece without failing.
The hard part is, the connection. because i cant find it. i guess loves supposed to come out of no where.